Day 42

Well, it's here. The final day of the six week challenge. Tomorrow's weigh in will give me my final results! It's almost midday and I am only eating breakfast now, because I didn't get to eat before taking my daughter to basketball. I then took her to Bunnings to buy a plant (for her birthday) and we also ended up getting a hanging basket and a hook for it (will need my husband to put the hook up on the wall though...). Finally got home to eat!

Now, I have to decide how to spend the rest of the day! I need to get stuck into some heavy duty housework next week, due to my daughter's party next Saturday, so my focus will probably be that rather than writing which is my usual focus. And THEN it's two weeks of school holidays, which means I won't be able to do my regular exercise (will try and go walking with my sister and the kids, as she's having a holiday too) and I won't get plenty of child-free time to focus on work! Which doesn't mean NONE, it just means it's not as easy because I have more distractions, noise, concerns etc.

Hmm... for some reason I am feeling sort of down today, and I'm not sure why. Maybe it is just one of those "things"... there's no real reason for it. Sure, I have a lot of work to do over the next week, but that's fine. In general the house is fairly messy, and I do find that depressing, so that could be a contributing factor. Usually having a clean house is a bit of an upper for me (and it's not something I accomplish frequently enough!) Even when the living area and kitchen is tidy I feel pretty good. So yeah, I have to get onto that and get some of the mess sorted out.

Tomorrow will be busy in that direction, because my mum is coming by at about half past two to see my daughter for her birthday, so I want it to be reasonably tidy by then (well the main areas of the house). I also have to make the cake at some point, earlyish so it's completely ready by the time she gets home from school. AND I also have to EXERCISE!

At the moment I am making vegan muffins, which aren't great for my diet but my daughter wanted to make them (of course, now she's playing with a friend so my son is helping me instead lol). I guess she really just wants to EAT then. So, hope they're yummy! Of course, I will try and restrict myself so I'm not eating too many of them, because of course, they're not majorly healthy lol. Maybe just one a day! And when the kids are eating birthday cake, which I can't eat myself (no, I'm not making vegan birthday cake, although that's something I could try).

Well, just sort of finished making the muffins (they're in the oven) boy the mixture was sloppy! I think it could have done with less milk (rice milk!) or more flour. Or something! However, it's NOT a good way to end this six week challenge! Eating a muffin!

Ahh well, for me it's not about six weeks, it's about ongoing weight loss that will get me to my weight goal once and for all, and will make me healthier in the process. By next summer, I aim to be 50kg or under, and not ashamed to go to the pool in bathers :D (At the moment I wear these sort of long gym pants and a covering top when I go to the pool... errm and I didn't even go last summer because my weight had ballooned far past my point of comfort). Ideally I'll have conquered my cellulite too! Fat thighs are bad enough, but lumpy cellulite is just URGH. I also have stretch marks, but there's not much I can do about that, just hope they fade in time.

So, I have at least 8 months to achieve that goal, and I think it's definitely doable, especially if I keep on the path I'm on. I really want to push things along in April due to my high school reunion on 1st of May, but after that it's really just a matter of keeping on the path I'm on and making the right decisions 99% of the time.

Of course, my weight isn't my complete focus for the year, as I have SO MUCH else I need to work on and do! It's a major issue, sure, but it's a side issue compared to career and actually making enough money to survive (which at the moment is uncertain, although I am sure I have the ability to succeed, I just need to get my rear in gear and get stuck into things fully). I REALLY need to get this writing course done... at least the first part, and then I can pause until I get to the second part (after the first has been sent back). It's self paced but I don't wanna take years ;) I actually want to get to the useful bits that will help me earn more of an income!

I really don't want to be doing freelance work for other people forever, I want to be writing my own books, but I do need to develop more skills along the way to achieve that. And if I can eventually get freelance writing gigs that pay well (as in a few hundred for an article rather than $10 or $15), then I can spend more time writing my own stuff, while getting paid well to do other stuff!

Hmm...I've also realised that I'm very embarrassed when people come to visit my house and it looks like a bomb site. I can't imagine what they tell their parents (cause it's generally kids lol). I would love to have things tidy and completely in order. That's something else to aim for by the end of the year (of course, it's an ongoing process).

So, I'll write out now what I want to achieve by the end of the year:

1. To weigh 50kg or less
2. To have a tidy, organised house
3. To know conversational German (and be able to read most German stuff, at least understanding enough that it's not complete gobbledegook to me)
4. To have finished my writing course
5. To have written and completed at least 5 novels, all of which will be with publishers etc. looking for a house (not published, but at least doing the rounds).

So that's it! FIVE things! And I need to do things towards each of these things every week without fail. Let's see how I do ;)