Sunday, February 28, 2010

Day 21

And the end of the third week... it's amazing how fast the time actually goes! Tomorrow is weigh in day *gulp*. I'm really not sure how I'll go! I know I must have lost some weight, because I can get the jeans on, but I'm really not where I wanted to be by the end of Feb! Well, we will see what the next few weeks brings... especially as I am aiming to eat at least 90% raw vegan!

My toe is still sore today, so no walking. Hopefully I will be able to ride tomorrow though! I really need to do my riding for exercise, and I need to keep the habit going with it!

Okay, well had to drive my husband back home (which is 1.5 hours each way, plus about half an hour stop off in the middle). When we got there kids ate toast and butter, I went hungry :( My in laws aren't particularly vegan in their habits lol. So got home at 8.00 made kids some pasta (with cheese) and me some vegan sausages and salad. Not bad vegan wise, not so great BodySculpt wise. Oh well! We shall see what tomorrow morning brings as far as weight loss is concerned! I am very, very interested in the difference between eating mostly raw vegan and eating the BodySculpt way for weight loss.

I don't feel that I lost a lot when I followed BS principles, and I'm not sure why that is, because from a biochemical perspective it makes a lot of sense! However, I've heard many raw foodists say they lose a LOT of weight when they first go raw. I am not sure what a LOT entails ;)

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Day 20!

Well had quite a busy morning, so didn't get all the meals in, or any official exercise. Took my oldest son for a scholarship exam, then took the youngest to his basketball. We then visited the shops, and I had a strawberry smoothie thingy (not too unhealthy, but too much sugar for sure). Then went back to pick up the oldest from his exam, and took a walk around the school which went for awhile. I'm sure I got some steps in, but not enough! (And I'm wearing heels, not high ones... but high enough for ouchie feets!).

Lunch was pretty good, although I had a wrap which contains a bit of carb (not as bad as bread though). However, overall I think it wasn't too bad considering I COULD have had much worse!

Oooh and I manged to get into a pair of jeans today! Okay it was a squeeze, but I made it ;) It's a bit depressing as at some point last year they were fairly loose... but they got to the point where I couldn't wear them at all. I just tried them today cause I didn't want to turn up at a private school in a daggy old pair of trackies lol.

OMG the Dell website has been updated! I may get my computer this millenia! (Yup, that was sarcastic... it was last updated on 29th of January to say my computer had arrived in Australia and then NOTHING until today, almost a month later, to say it's now gone to a local carrier). I do wonder what the hold up was!

OUCH! My husband nearly broke my toe today, and I had to spend all afternoon and evening limping around... grr... hope it's better by Monday so I can continue riding! I would be useless at walking though, I think!

Food...well I did okay, but only by my estimation of okay! I didn't follow the old BS principles much unfortunately. But, I haven't overeaten, or eaten anything that's really, really bad. So that's good! I do need more exercise tomorrow, as I didn't get much today, and due to the early morning and lack of sleep, I really wasn't up for much anyway.

Friday, February 26, 2010

Day 19

Well, I have ridden each day this week, which is good! I also am finding it easier to get the whole distance, even with HILLS. YAY! However, I have run out of good things to eat ;) Fortunately, it's shopping day today! Unfortunately, I'm kinda broke :( So I have to be careful what I buy. I have a lasagne to make on the weekend, but it's not for me ;) At least it gives the kids something for a couple of days. I am trying to think of meat-free meals for the kids. Perhaps I will pick up more pasta and stuff for them (although I don't want them having too much pasta or other complex carbs). Sigh... I am just planning on eating raw, at least 90% next week. No meat for me! I may get a couple of vegie burgers or something though, in case the craving is too bad lol.

I will go back to my morning smoothie, and will also probably make a green smoothie during the day, which means I need a bunch of greens. I also need a lot of fruit, for me and for the kids. So, I have to try and get plenty of that, and still keep costs down! Interesting challenge!

Hmm I keep getting headaches, and I wonder why... is it because I'm not drinking enough water?? Or am I getting detox reactions? I don't know! I used to get headaches when I stopped caffeine, but I haven't had any caffeine for awhile now. It's annoying because I'm tempted to use painkillers, especially when I have work or something I really need to do and I can't concentrate because of the headache. It would be nice if I could just sleep it off or something, but that's not always possible!

Well tonight tea was NOT GOOD... We went to KFC (first takeaway in two weeks) and I had fries and P&G. All vegan, nothing healthy ;)

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Day 18

Had another good ride this morning. I'm getting better at getting up those steep hills I think ;) Sure I'm still puffing and panting by the end, but the fact is I do MAKE it up the hills now! Eating, well it's going okay, still not particularly BS specific though. Hmm not sure how much difference that will make over the long term. I am really interested in what will happen when I change my diet to 100% raw. It's going to be tough, but I'm going to do it as a 30 Day Challenge! The idea of the 30 day challenge being that at the end you can go back to your old ways if the new way doesn't work ;) I'm not making the challenge particularly strict I don't think. I don't know if I'll completely ban cooked foods 100% (I may perhaps eat one cooked thing a day if I get a particular craving), but I'd like to make it 90% raw at least.

Hmm I like to make a smoothie in the mornings (which I haven't been doing since I started this challenge as it has fruit in it), and I usually use soy protein in it. However, the protein isn't raw. I'll probably finish the protein I've got before I buy any raw protein powder (some purists won't use things like protein powder, but I'm certainly not a purist, at least not yet!) I find it's filling, for starters, and after a big smoothie (generally a scoop of protein powder, an apple, a handful of frozen blueberries, and some goji berries... occasionally I'll add some spirulina or raw cacao powder too) I feel quite full and don't want to eat for several hours. Oooh I also used to use MSN powder but ran out! (I must buy some more).

Actually, early last year I was having this every day and my fingernails became a lot stronger and much less prone to breakage. I'm sure if I did it for the long term I'd have a lot of improvement with my hair too. Of course, it takes a lot longer to see an improvement in hair if one's hair is quite long! The ends of my hair are damaged by having blonde foils (even though it's been dyed since then and I haven't had them done for a couple of years). I'm growing out that damage, but it will take a few years (cause I have long hair and I have no intention of cutting it off! I did have quite a lot off about 15 months ago, and it was much shorter than I like - long enough to pull back, but it sat above my shoulders because of the slight wave, since then I've grown it fairly long again).

Anyhow, enough rambling lol. I am quite excited to start on raw next week, while still following the BodySculpt training principles.

Hmm well, I went for a short walk this afternoon, which was extra exercise for the day. I didn't eat a proper meal tonight because there was nothing in the house that was really appropriate food for me! I did have a few macadamias though ;) My biggest problem at the moment is having ginger or spiced tea with honey. That is carb therefore that is BAD! This is something I definitely have to cut back on!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Day 17

Just been for another ride, although I almost didn't go today because I figured I wasn't getting as much work done as I should be! However, I feel that's a bit of a slippery slope, and if I don't go today then maybe I make an excuse other times as well, which I don't want to do! I need to kick this extra weight right off, which I'm not going to do sitting around on my arse in front of a computer screen!

As for the eating... well I'm not perfect with that. Don't get me wrong, in a general sense my eating isn't BAD I'm just not following correct BodySculpt principles. I don't know if that's a problem or not ;) If I eat fruit, for example, I can't think of it as BAD even though it's forbidden on BS. Well, I'll just work on eating as well as I can, and getting my exercise in. Over time, it's gotta do SOME good. And when (on March 1st) I start going full raw (for at least a month's trial) we'll see what happens to the weight! Every account I read of people going raw has weight falling off them ;) some even get freaked out by the amount of weight loss. (I'm not sure if I could get freaked out by losing weight! It's too much of a good thing in my book ;)) of course, I don't want my skin going saggy... Mind you, from what I've read, most raw people find their skin goes back to normal after some while ;) I think it's just a matter of sticking with it!

Well, there hasn't been much updating today, has there? Is this cause I've fallen off the wagon with respect to food? It's not bad exactly... but as I said before, it's not really BodySculpt compliant. And I've had herbal tea with honey, which is sugar which is verboten! However, apart from that I can't complain about what I've eaten. I don't think I'm doing this 6 meals per day thing though ;)

One thing I DO need to focus on is WATER. I need to drink more of it! This is one thing of the program I definitely want to stick with.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Day 16

Well, yesterday wasn't too bad, but not brilliant either. I have to try and fit EPOC in today as I missed it yesterday. I'll go riding again this morning to get the mail, as it is a decent length ride, and quite a bit of effort getting home, so I know I'm getting that blood circulating etc.

I also need to work on the book I have to finish this week and write a couple of articles (which I am heartily sick of as they are incredibly repetitive - you have NO idea). The book is more interesting, and it should be finished soon (which is good cause I need the $$).

Well, today's schedule has been thrown out a bit, as my daughter had to come home early for school because of an ear infection. She is ALWAYS getting ear infections lol. Most of the time they don't even seem to bother her... I am sick of taking her to the doctor, becuase usually they just pop her on antibiotics. Sure the problem goes away, but I think in the long term it probably only exacerbates the issue. Instead, I just use colloidal silver on her. It has antibiotic properties and none of the side effects of normal antibiotics. I've also told her NO MILK for awhile, as milk and other dairy products also make the problem worse. Anyway, having a 7 year old at home makes life a little more challenging work wise ;) especially when she's on her own and wants attention. Mind you, she's outside at the moment because the kids at school were on lunch break, so I guess she's talking to them through the fence.

Here's the stupid thing... the school called while I was on my ride, and cause they couldn't get me they called my parents to pick her up! So about an HOUR after getting home from my ride, I get a call from Mum that she's at their house and I have to pick her up. The irony of course, is that we live right next to the school (which is accessed through a gate in our backyard), so normally if I had been able to answer the phone, I could have walked straight into the school and got her!

OUCH OUCH OUCH! I have such a headache! No idea why... I should be over caffeine withdrawal... so... It's just a mystery to me! I am loath to take painkillers, but I just had to take one. Gotta get through the evening, finish getting kids bathed, dishes done, washing done etc. etc. etc.

Well currently reading a lot of raw stuff, recipes etc. Getting inspiration! Hehe not a great time to decide I really HAVE to go raw, right in the middle of the BodySculpt Challenge, where one tends ot eat lots of meat, meat, meat... but I am just so over meat! Unbelievable but true. Ahh well ;) I have to go the way it feels right to go.

Hmm I have a small carnivorous creature climbing on me. It seems to love me LOTS and LOTS. It's bad having to feed carnivores when one is trying to go vegan ;) but that seems to be the way it is. Kitties just ARE!

Monday, February 22, 2010

Day 15 - Week 3!

Well I did lose some weight, although not as much as I'd hoped ;) However, I really didn't expect to, because I hadn't noticed any real difference in size/clothes etc. Still, something is better than nothing ;)

I haven't been so good at keeping the food diary, so I want to try and accomplish that better this week. As well as getting exercise, EPOC etc. done when I should. I still have a backlog of work that I need to get wiped out this week, which should be possible if I keep to a reasonable schedule.

I just have to remember to keep stepping forward, even if the occasional backstep does occur! Three steps forward and one or two steps back is still further forward than taking one step forward and three steps back (and I swear I did a LOT of that last year... I ended up a loooong way back, meaning I have further forward to go than I would have had I not had such a year).

Sooo onward and upward. My weight HAS gone down, and as long as I keep working at it, it should go down more! I REALLY want a substantial loss by May 1st, but as long as I just get into the healthy weight range I think I should be reasonably happy by then. I just don't want to be overweight, let alone obese! Well, another good week or so and I should drop out of the obese category, FOR GOOD. I have no intention of going back to what I am today. It's too challenging, too painful, too too many things!

PHEW! Went for my ride, and I'm pleased to say I rode the entire way back! Sure I stopped for a breather a couple of times (and a drink of water) but I made it back, even up the court! (The very end and one of the steepest sections with nowhere to kinda gather speed before getting up the hill). Well my heart's still pounding harder (about 5 minutes after sitting down) and I'm still dripping with sweat, but I made it okay! I didn't think I'd do much better than last Monday, but I think I did... it was maybe just a touch easier?? I didn't feel quite as much like dying anyway ;)

Well today I got my front hall sorted and finished putting things in the display cabinet (which I just hadn't gotten around to). Did do an article this morning, but was feeling fatigued this afternoon, so didn't do much. This is kind of a BAD thing, because while I have plenty of housework/sorting etc. to do, I also have plenty of OTHER work to do. Partly my reason for losing weight is to gain energy, but if I am lacking in energy, then nothing much gets accomplished.

Well, overall not too bad today, except I missed EPOC as I spent 45 minutes on hold on the phone fruitlessly waiting for Dell customer service. In the end I gave up... *sigh* Last I was told I'd receive my computer on the 12th of February, and it's now the 22nd, and the customer service tickets I raised have been summarily ignored! NOT HAPPY JAN!

Eating, not too bad, although I'm sure the vegan foods I've had today aren't really the right balance of protein:carbohydrate. I just don't feel at all like eating meat anymore! EEP. I still have some meat in the house I should consume probably ;) I just really don't want it at all anymore. How funny!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Day 14

Well week 2 is nearly over, and weigh-in day is tomorrow... I do wonder what results - if any - I'll see?? I really don't feel as if I've lost a lot of weight over the past week. I have been pretty good with eating and exercising, although for various reasons not 100% compliant. Which is life, I think! Next week should be better, as my husband won't be home (at least until Friday night) so I'll have 5 days with no excuse for not getting my exercise in! And also, no negative influence ;)

This is the last week I'll follow the program exactly as is, because I'm definitely going to change to raw next week (starting Monday 1st March). I'll try and make that a thirty day challenge or so, and see how I go with high raw vegan (I will aim for at least 80 - 90% raw), but may eat something not quite raw depending on the circumstances. Hehe. I want to see which program helps me drop the weight faster. I do believe going raw will help me be HEALTHIER, no matter what, though. Some people suggest you don't get enough protein or whatever on raw and without plant food, but duh horses don't eat meat and I'm sure they're not weak and pitiful due to lack of protein ;) Also, I have read several times where people feel their athletic skills and strength have increased after going raw. So that will be interesting to see too!

Well today I had to drive my husband home, and as I did not prepare properly food wise, I did the unthinkable...I ate toast! And had coffee and sugar! Well, that's a really BAD way of ending the fortnight, I know! Maybe I am feeling a bit bad because it seems I'm not losing weight or size?? Whatever the case, it was a stuff up and I know it. Since then, of course, I haven't tasted anything bad ;) Oh well... Tomorrow is another day! I will give it my all for the third week, and see if I get a difference the week after. If not, I can assume it isn't working too well, or I'm just eating too much!

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Day 13

Well the second week's nearly over! It will be weigh in day in a couple of days, but I'm not holding my breath. It does seem I have lost some fat, as it's easier to bend over, as my fat belly doesn't get in the way as much. But at the same time I seem to have sort of stagnated (maybe??). It's too early to plateau ;) I have decided to persist with this program for the next week (eating wise), and the week after I will try raw vegan for three weeks and see how I feel! The reason I say this now is because I feel my energy levels have decreased, and I also feel that I'm just not getting enough good nutrition in the diet, by avoiding fresh fruits. Sure I've had some green veg, tabouli etc. but it doesn't seem enough to counteract the meat, eggs etc. I've also been going for more vegan food choices, which are higher in carb just cause I can't bring myself to eat meat that often!

To be fair, I feel better than I did before I started, but I don't feel 100%. I want to feel FANTASTIC! Eating very high raw just feels right to me, in a way eating a lot of animal protein doesn't. And raw also makes more sense than cooked! Humans weren't designed to cook their food ;) we went thousands and thousands of years NOT cooking lol.

In a sense, I think if we were meant to eat meat, then we'd all love ripping into dead animals and eating them raw... but how many people actually want to DO that? And how many could physically BRING themselves to do that?? Maybe if I was starving or something...

Well, it's 8:39pm... and I did a couple of wrong things today. For starters, I missed a meal or two. Hehe I know it sounds odd, but having 6 meals (or meals + snacks) each day, means it's easy to forget one when you're used to three standard meals! I got up latish, so had breakfast at 9:00 or so. Later I went shopping, and got home probably about 2:00 pm, not having eaten anything else! So, I had an Atkins bar, and that was it. Later on in the day (about 5) I had some ricotta and chives, and ate my meal about 8:00pm. I also ate a wee bit of potato and had some dessert (So Good chocolate icecream). So, far from perfect, but not dreadful ;) I have been doing a lot more reading about the raw food diet, so am feeling quite anxious to start that. However, I am sticking with this BodySculpt system for another week.

When I go raw, I won't completely abandon BS, I will continue to do my walking/riding and the EPOC exercises, but dietary wise I'll be very different. I think this comes down to individual preferences and the way I feel I SHOULD eat. I just don't feel BS is sustainable for me over the long term, although others are fine with it. Everything I've read suggests that I'll lose weight going raw (most people who do choose 100% raw diets find that they reach their "ideal" weight, and their weight stabilises over time). It seems very few raw food eaters end up with any weight problems, and generally are very healthy too!

Friday, February 19, 2010

Day 12

Well last night I stuffed up a bit... I made a "cheesecake" from the recipe book, and although I only made a 1/2 quantity, I should only have eaten 1/2 of that 1/2, but I ate the full amount and ended up feeling a little icky and stuffed! At least it was the JS day ;)

The challenge for me is that my husband is going to be home again this weekend. Now, don't ask me why, but I find it very, very difficult to stay motivated and focused when he is around. He SAYS he is supportive, but his behaviour is not.

In fact, the other day he said: "Is it fair to expect me to suffer just because you are on a diet?" And by "suffer" I mean that I asked him not to eat chocolate and stuff in front of me. Errm sorry if you have to do it somewhere else??? The other day he visited again (I say visited because he works for his parents 1.5 hours away, and generally works 12/14 days, therefore can't come here much, so he really lives with them not me at the moment...) and I took him to Coles to buy some stuff. He bought an almond Picnic bar and some Rocky Road. Well, he proceeded to eat the Picnic (offering me some... errm no thanks) in the car beside me! Nice??!! Then, after seeing my restraint there, and therefore KNOWING that I was sticking to a diet... AND seeing me turn down my son's hotcakes that night (which he made for Shrove Tuesday), he bought me some of my favourite Sovereign Hill raspberry drops the next day *sigh*. Obviously I CAN'T eat them... and he KNOWS my response when I break a healthy eating plan is usually to fall off the wagon...

To me support = not eating chocolate etc. in front of me, not offering me lollies that I shouldn't be eating (even when I love them), and not expecting me to just have "willpower" in such situations. I have explained to him that a supportive environment (where temptations are out of reach) is much better than one that isn't. Then he accused me of making the kids miss out (??) because of my diet. I told him that no, they don't miss out. I still take them out for tea once a fortnight (to Macca's, KFC or whatever), they have a muesli bar (or similar) for lunch each day, I let them buy lollies from the shop once a week or so (although I try and encourage them to walk/ride to the shop to get them... which isn't a short/easy journey lol). So how are they missing out? He asked if I give them dessert or ice cream after dinner occasionally. Yes, VERY occasionally. Since when do kids need dessert every day? Well, apparently HE did as a child. In my family we didn't. I don't think it's healthy eating to have dessert all the time (I don't mind if the kids have fruit or similar). Besides which, our 11 year old son is getting very overweight! How can I support him if I am buying the kids junk? Sure, the younger ones are still lean, but I can't buy it for them and let him miss out either. I see him now and I know that he needs to lose weight! He'll be in high school next year, and I think it's hard enough for kids without them being short, fat and brainy ;) he may still be short and brainy, but I want to get the fat under control! To do that, I need to set the right example myself (at the moment, I'm not a great example because I am obese), and I need to eat right to do that. I don't need to be giving them treats all the time!

So that's me venting ;) My husband really has a different way of looking at things. He thinks kids can eat what they want as long as they get plenty of exercise. I think eating is very important as well as exercise! I have explained to my husband time and again that to lose weight *I* need to do both. Just exercising doesn't cut it! If I'm eating crap and exercising, guess what? I stay fat! I may get more muscular, I may get fitter, but I'm still fat!

Anyhow, I just need to get through the weekend ;) And I need to TRY to not let him bother me! It is becoming awfully clear exactly why I have struggled so much with my weight over the past few years with him! And I don't even think he MEANS to sabotage me... he just expects me to be somehow superhuman, watch him pig out on junk while I miss out! That's hard ;) He told me he sometimes likes to sit down with some food to watch TV or a movie. Great! But errm if you wanna watch it WITH me, then try and be more sensitive. Or I'll just go and do something else and you won't get the time with me... If that's me being selfish, then so be it! There has to be some sort of compromise here. I really struggle, and have struggled for years, so the best thing for me is to be IN a supportive environment where junk just isn't available. Where someone isn't offering me chips or chocolate or whatever.

So, after all that rambling... I have just been for a ride, not too long but still, it's something! I get the heart pumping, body moving, fresh air etc. etc. so it's all good! Now, I have work to accomplish, because it's Friday, and this week hasn't gone as I initially planned! Still, just gotta keep putting one foot in front of the other!

Well, it's just gone 3pm, and I have to confess I was feeling a little tired earlier. I went into my room and lay on the bed, only intending to be there for a short while, but I fell asleep! I woke up, realised it was lunch and dragged myself up again. I still feel a little foggy in the head, but to be fair, I've had a much harder time dragging myself out of bed in the past! I wanted to go shopping this afternoon before school finishes, but that's obviously not going to happen! I did tell the two younger kids I'd buy them a basketball today, so I may take them to the shops to buy a couple of balls, and pop into Coles to at least pick up something for tonight. My husband will be there as well tonight so will want something substantial. I'll probably do a full shop tomorrow (since he's around, I don't need to take the kids!)

Now, I'll finish sorting the clean laundry and get the kids' stuff ready for swimming this afternoon. As for work, well I wrote one article! I need to get one more done today (at a bare minimum), my mind just hasn't been settled today (although that's no excuse). I really feel that when the challenge is over, I'll experiment with more raw food and full vegan eating. I'm becoming less comfortable with eating meat, and feel much better when I avoid it. I have been eating it during the challenge because, for starters, I have several BodyTrim meals that have meat as their base, and because I still had fish and stuff in the house that the kids won't eat. Once all that's gone, I think I'll just quit it! However, I'll get through these 6 weeks first (towards the end I'll probably be eating more vegan options). I love the general idea of the BodySculpt program, but don't like that I can't eat fruit, and don't like the emphasis on animal protein (although it is possible to go vegetarian, being a vegan on the program would be a huge challenge because there are so few pure protein vegan sources). I find that eggs and cottage cheese or ricotta cheese are sort of staples for snacks and stuff, as well as tuna! Anyway, it will be a bit of an experiment as to how my weight goes eating this way, and how it goes when I change to eating more fruits, and no meat/eggs/dairy with a higher raw food content.

Okay, finished the day with a couple of lentil vegie burgers and tabouli. Probably too many carbs in those!! BUT not as bad as the pies and potato wedges everyone else was eating ;)

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Day 11

It's another jumpstart day. Can't believe it's come around again already ;) I'm leaving a 3 day gap between each JS day, so it's not a regular day each week. This means a bit more fat in the diet today, and maybe being less careful with quantities ;) of course, I'm not careful enough as it is with quantities! I don't tend to go overboard on JS days (well not since last Wed when I definitely went off the rails with it.

Anyway, today I should be going for a ride this morning (which can't be too long because I have a ton of stuff to do, being as how the last couple of days were sort of washout days for me as far as work was concerned. Also need to do EPOC today since I didn't get it done yesterday. This means I'll be out with it a bit... as Sat will be a bit challenging (given kids are home and I prefer to do it in a kid free environment, seeing as the only room I can use is the living room!)

I'm feeling a bit shitty today because I STILL haven't heard back from Dell (although they promise to get back to you within 24 hours HAH) and still don't have a computer! OMG... It apparently arrived in Australia over TWO WEEKS ago...GRR If they updated their tracking more often, or were better with customer service I'd be happy! If I don't hear back from them by this afternoon I will bloody CALL them (and probably have to deal with a help desk somewhere overseas...)

Well still haven't heard from Dell lol But I have done my exercise. Didn't do a very long ride this morning because I wanted to get more work done, but ended up chatting for a good long time after the ride finished anyway ;) However, I've still managed to knock back 4 annoying articles (want to get at least one more done today, to keep the client happy!), and I haven't done much for the other client whose work I'm doing right now. Also, haven't done any house cleaning or decluttering which I also need to do!

My son is starting basketball for the first time tonight, which means sitting around for an hour or so while he practices (and trying to keep the other two kids from being too bored). While an hour sounds long, it's not really long enough to go home and do other stuff before returning to pick him up (also a waste of petrol!). The challenge with the end of the week for me is that the after school time is also busy, so I can't get any work done then!

I usually try and map out my day so I get most of my work done before the kids finish school at 3:30, but I also do some work usually when they're home. I just can't schedule the time as well, so I don't make any plans that are TOO firm during this time. However, I still have to use the time in a disciplined way, which I don't always do. (Lots of Internet surfing, chatting etc.)

Well, 8:46pm and I've put the kids in bed. Haven't accomplished any more work though ;) but at least I knocked some stuff out of the way! I will send what I've done so far to my clients tomorrow, and hopefully they'll both be reasonably satisfied. I will get ALL this stuff completed early next week. I have a course that I need to work on and haven't started yet, a language to learn, a new book to start, and more clients to find! And, of course, WEIGHT to lose! I find that I ramble on waaaay too much about irrelevant crap in this blog, instead of on my WEIGHT LOSS which is why I started the darn thing in the first place.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Day 10!

Hard to believe it's already day 10! Sure I haven't acheived as much as I wanted to, but I need to remember that entire YEARS go by where I don't lose the weight I promised I would on January 1st. And honestly, there was always the risk that I could keep being the way I was for ever more (GAK!) And thus, a bit of slow weight loss isn't the end of the world ;)

I know that I do feel a bit thinner, and my muscles a bit tighter. I've been really good at avoiding complex carbs for the past 9 days (had two days where I ate something that was verboten, but not in large quantities). Sure, if I'd been 100% compliant I may be seeing better results now. But then again, if I'd never started, or gone my usual way of quitting before I'd barely even started, I'd be nowhere now.

If I didn't have a high school reunion on the 1st of May I'd probably be less stressed now about losing the weight too ;) I just made up my mind that there was no way I'd turn up to the reunion FAT. I just couldn't bring myself to do it! I don't need to be a size 8 to go, just not overweight ;) Even if I don't reach my ultimate goal weight I'll still be happy if I'm under 55 by then, I think. Even if I'm fairly close to there I'll be happy! However, come January 1st 2011, I'll definitely be at my goal weight!

It's now 6:10pm and today was a complete washout as far as work/exercise was concerned. By the time I had dropped my husband off (went shopping first), and came back home it was almost 3:30. Kids got home from school, took my daughter to a party, bought some frog food, went home and it's 4:30 (at which time I ate lunch!!!) Had to pick her up at 5:30. Sooo... no work, no riding or walking, no EPOC, and just tired me! I missed a meal, but everything I ate was compliant (well I had a cup of tea at my in laws' house with artificial sweetener, but still a bit of milk). I've had some water today (had some in the car) but definitely not the full complement!

I guess I just have to accept that days like today happen! I could have been worse and eaten at Macca's with the kids ;) And this I did not do, so that is something of a victory! The boys are pretty much having a "free tea night" tonight, which means I may have a BT meal or something else I feel like (that's healthy lol).

Okay, it's time for bed (after 11). Had my final snack of ricotta cheese with parsley (ensuring it was just 50g lol). So, eating today was fairly good, except for the interruption to my schedule due to driving. But again, no real work at home, no exercise... blah! Tomorrow I'm going for a ride with a friend. Last week we went on a really long ride, but tomorrow I will tell her I need a shorter one due to lack of time! There is just too much to do and today and yesterday have put me back a ways. Well, there's only one way forward, and I just need to keep going in that direction!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Day 9 and Going Fine!

Yeah, stupid heading lol... Well it's only 8:30 so haven't had much chance NOT to go fine yet! My biggest issue at the moment is my husband is currently staying with us (at the moment he lives 1.5 hours away for work), and when he's around I find it MUCH harder to stick to my plan. This is generally because he does stuff like... eat chocolate in front of me! And of course, I have to cook extra food for him, and it's generally not stuff that's supportive of my eating. *sigh* Well I'll just have to work around him as best as I can!

It's also harder to get my exercise in too... well that's probably an excuse. It's just easier when I'm home on my own to go and do my own thing, like go for a ride or a walk. Of course, there's no real reason why I can't just TELL him that I'm going riding! It's just weird ;)

Well it's almost 8pm... my eating has been pretty good, except I missed my afternoon snack! However I didn't get my walking done. In fact, I didn't get much work done today, as I ended up either discussing stuff with my husband, doing administrative stuff, or setting up stuff I hadn't done yet. Soo... work wise and exercise wise, not a great day! On the upside my legs are still a bit stiff from yesterday ;)

However as I've resisted lollies (that my husband bought today, and that I usually LOVE) and all other temptations that were put my way (my son made pancakes for Shrove Tuesday), I know that at least my dietary willpower was good!

It's really odd how whenever my husband's around, I just get lazy and de-motivated...There are other house work activities etc. that needed doing, but just didn't get done today. And while I managed to get some stuff done yesterday afternoon when the kids were home, that just didn't happen today. Then tomorrow I have to drive my husband home in the morning after the kids leave for school (cutting into my work/exercise time), and come home again, well there goes most of my day! After school my daughter has a birthday party to go to, so I'll have to take her to that, which will take a bit of time, and of course I need to pick her up again ;) Thursday evening my youngest son is starting basketball, and Friday the kids go swimming... so none of those will be great evenings/afternoons for work either! However, I refuse to believe that the entire week will be a deadloss!! I have to think positively and keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Finished the day with a small snack of cottage cheese and parsley. This time I weighed the cheese to get 50g cause it's quite hard to estimate this much, and I think I usually go over. This week I was SUPPOSED to be getting better with quantities, but for one reason or another I really haven't done so well in this regard! I've left the scales on the bench so I'll remember to weigh, so I get no more than 50g for snacks and 100g for meals.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Week 2 - Day 8

Okay, had a weigh in and I'm now 72.4kg... so that's a loss of 1.6kg. Now, I can't be too unhappy because it IS a loss. However, as I said, last week I had to finetune things a bit, this week I have to get tougher. I'm used to the diet now, I've got in the habit of doing more exercise (riding/walking), I just need to get the EPOC done three times a week, and watch the overall food consumption.

Well it's almost 11, and I just went for my ride. Naturally, I'm puffed and dripping with sweat lol. It took me about 1/2 an hour (to be precise 3 songs on the way there and 5 on the way back) considering most of the way there is an easy downhill, it explains why getting home takes longer and is far more challenging. However, I got up a couple of hills I didn't think I'd be able to do (of course, after that I was nearly dead!) But it gives me something to work on as far as fitness is concerned, I just need to keep seeing how long it takes before I can do entire way back without walking (I have to get off about 4 times to bypass gates, or bits where you just need to physically walk).

Now I suppose it's snack time, and then back to the grind!

Okay, it's 5:40, and I've had a fairly good day. I must say I didn't accomplish everything on my to do list, but I have got through part of a book I'm writing (and which I was supposed to finish some time ago, but got held up by holidays and a naughty computer) which the client is eagerly awaiting (and I get a bit of money when I finish it, so that's nice hehe).

However, I have a bunch of articles to write that aren't getting anywhere, and that client will start wondering where they are soon too! (I hate these ones cause the pay's crap...I really need some better clients). Once I've finished those jobs I have to actually start looking for more freelance work, which will also take some time. Of course, while waiting for jobs to come in I have a zillion other things to focus on, so it's all fun and games!

Anyway, back to the topic at hand. I've done my EPOC for the day YAY! I sagged a bit on the shoulder presses and squats (my legs hate squats), but apart from that all was good. I had an afternoon snack which was okay, but I'm wondering if protein bars are a great snack for every day, or if I should leave them for every second day? Or even just for jumpstart days? It's all about refining what I do to get the maximum results, so we'll see...

Well just had my evening meal, vegan sausages with some creamed spinach (using tofutti), so I had a full on vegan meal. I do hope having all these vegan meals doesn't affect my results much! I know I have to watch quantities, and I'm afraid I may have gone overboard today! I want to keep the weight going DOWN and not stagnating cause I'm eating too much!

Well today I got my 6th meal in... which I don't usually accomplish. I like the 3 hour rule, but find it needs to be broken a bit or I'd be eating really late every day! Still not sure about portions... I am concerned that I'm overdoing it in that respect.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Day 7 - End of the Week!

Well had a late start this morning (surprise surprise, it's Sunday!) but I ate a good breakfast. It's also a jumpstart day, so I can have a few more calories. I don't know how that will affect weigh in tomorrow though! However, I have no intention of eating as much as I did on Wednesday, I think I went too far in that.

Yesterday I found some small tomatoes in my fridge that had been there a bit too long (they're like cherry tomatoes in size, but are some other variety). I was disappointed because they're nice, sweet ones. However, they hadn't gone mouldy or anything, they were just a wee bit shrivelled. So I decided to make semi-dried tomatoes. Today I will eat them and see how they are ;) I also have an avocado to eat... which might be nice with some of those toms mixed in...hmmm...

Not sure how exercise will go today, again because I have housework to do and kids to look after. Although if I was particularly motivated I could take the kids for a walk in the forest! I'll see how it goes.

Well it's 2:10 and I'm feeling sort of down... I think it's a case of being overwhelmed by all the stuff I have to do, and just seeing no concrete end in sight (this isn't just weight loss... weight loss is just a part of my life). I really need to set a concrete plan in motion and just get stuck into it! No more procrastination!! I know I am progressing along my goal, but I feel as if it's three steps forward and two backwards. Eventually I stop getting the three steps forward and start taking only one forward for every I take back! Unfortunately, this means I have lots of catch up to do ;)
So... I'm going to start by really focussing on timetabling my day better (need a bit of leeway, but too much leeway leads me astray!) Anyway, this has nothing to do with my BodySculpt Challenge! It's just a part of life challenge for me ;)

It's now 6:41, and things are all okay. Had avocado with the dried tomatoes for a snack, and it's nearly meal time (okay, bit late but not bad). I just have to resist the potato I'm cooking for the kids! I may have a small mouthful, but that'll be it. Apart from that it will be chicken with broccoli for me.

Ooh well I had a couple more pieces of potato than I should have... maybe the equivalent of a whole potato (not a big one). Still... it was a starchy veg that I did NOT need! Hopefully it won't affect my weigh in tomorrow much.

I do think that this week has been a wee bit about finetuning, and getting used to the program. Overall, I think I've done fairly well, but definitely not 100%, especially with the EPOC. On the weekend I also failed the walking (I did spend some time on my feet, for sure, but not sure if I got to 10k or not...) However, I was really good in that respect most of the week. However, it's 70% food, so I REALLY need to get that part of the equation down pat. I need to focus on timing more, ensuring I get my first meal at 7.30 so I can get all my meals in, and watching portion sizes.

However, I am very proud of the fact that for the most part I resisted temptation very well. For me, that's always been quite a struggle in the past! I think I've done well for the most part in avoiding starch and carbs. The only issue was Friday when I had a burger (but no fries!), and today when I had some potato. Wednesday also wasn't too great, but I got past that. Whether I lose or not I don't know, but I'm hoping for at least some reduction in bodyfat, and some loss of cms. However, as I didn't formally measure myself it's hard to tell ;)

Now, time to get my kids into bed, as it's 9.00 and they've got swimming carnival tomorrow (bad day for it as it's going to be chilly!!).

Finished day with a cup of spiced tea (with splenda) and a few macadamias, cause it's jumpstart day!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Day 6 - Week 1 nearly over!

Well, I got up a bit late today (well it's Saturday, so that's okay!) so didn't get breakfast until 9. This probably means one fewer snack today, and honestly I'm okay with that too. I don't really like eating straight before bed, and when I have breakfast at 9, that's pretty much what I'd have to do!

So far so good... it's 6pm and although I haven't done any formal exercise, I did spend most of the day tidying the house, and then went shopping with the kids. I bought them doughnuts, but didn't eat any myself. Go me!! Usually temptation would be too strong, but I just passed it up.

I feel as if I've lost some weight, or at least some cms. My stomach looks a wee bit flatter (of course, it's far from flat!!) and I know my muscles are more toned and tighter (especially my legs from the walking and riding). Although I'm female, building muscle has always come pretty easily to me. Of course, I don't want to get too bulky ;)

Hmm have eaten tea, but just still FEEL hungry. Or do I just want to eat?? What will satisfy me?? This is a challenging one... because it is an issue I do come across (and so do many others) that they just want to EAT. I know I can't logically be hungry as there's food in my belly! Maybe a cup of ginger tea or something will fix it?

One way I haven't been perfect, is I've been eating more vegetarian/vegan type meals instead of animal proteins. I realise animal proteins have less carbohydrates, but I'm getting to a stage in life where I'm seriously considering going vegan, purely for ethical reasons. It's a bit long to get into here, but for a long time I've been feeling that I've been living a hypocritical existence, that my beliefs aren't in line with my actions. This does make going on BodySculpt more difficult, simply because there is so much need for protein/fat foods, which is much easier to achieve when eating meat, eggs etc. Although, for me the jury's out on eggs... As long as eggs are non-fertilised and from free range chickens, I don't feel the chickens are suffering too much, because they'll make eggs whether they've been fertilised or not! So, as long as the chickens are kept ethically, I have less issues with eggs than with dairy or meat. Anyway, this is something to explore in greater detail at another time!

Well I made it till the end of the day, had a light snack at the end with cream cheese and chives (probably not quite the right proportions of fats/carbs/protein though).

Friday, February 12, 2010

Day 5

Well my biggest challenge today will be that it's "take away" night... oooh.... and I have to eat something that's compatible with my diet! Well, most places have "healthier" options, although I don't know if they have much that's low carb... so we'll just have to see! And resist the temptation to eat something bad ;)

Well it's almost 9:00 and I'm going on a ride or walk soon... Just not as far as yesterday, cause I don't want to be back so late! I have shopping to do, a well as a bunch of other work *sigh* I actually thought once the kids were at school I'd have more time to get things done, but with extra exercise, being tired, and all that sort of stuff, those 6.5 hours of the day go by very fast! AND it's already Friday. The weekend is one of the more challenging times, I think. Especially with regards to getting up on time lol... not sure if that will happen ;)

I'm also expecting my computer to arrive today. Well, not exactly EXPECTING but I've been told it should be here today. It's taken an awful long time, considering I received the speakers and mouse on the 27th of Jan... How useful!

Well been shopping, spent far too much money on food for the next week (I have to watch this!), and had a fairly good lunch. Now it's time for me to do my EPOC exercises, and tidy the living room!

Weeell... I must say Hungry Jack's doesn't have too many healthy eating options. I chose a burger, with no fries or drink (although I did drink some of my daughter's drink when I hurt my tongue) lol. Apart from that, I drank water.

Well my biggest failure this week was with EPOC!! I need to do it 100% next week (after all, it's just 3 times a week), although I was pretty good at getting other exercise in this week. The rest of today's diet was pretty good, so overall I'm not too unhappy today. Sure it wasn't perfect, but it was better than I used to be!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Day 4 Already!

Well although yesterday was a bit of a bust and I really didn't get my exercise in and my eating wasn't so good, today has started much better. I went for a ride a little after 9 with a friend, and we didn't get back until 12 (it was a good length ride!), the downside was I didn't get my snack in!! So I should prepare for that better. I wasn't expecting to be gone longer than 1.5 hours or so. But I've now had a late snack, so will probably have my lunch in less than 3 hours. The good thing, though, is that I'm right back on track after a bad day! YAY! Of course, I'm a tad behind in work lol But I hope that when I get a bit fitter, and really get stuck into eating correctly, I'll start feeling less tired and hopefully will have more energy to accomplish those other tasks!

I am not sure how I'll go at weigh-in on Monday... and I never did get around to measuring myself, so I can't determine if I've lost any centimetres either. Well, I may measure myself on Monday, and track from there.

Well it's just past 9pm, and I'm doing okay. For some reason I've had a craving for sweet things... I'm thinking of having some ginger tea with splenda in it. I've eaten pretty well, but I did lose a snack there because of my ride. And, my legs are somewhat tired now!

Okay, well it's time for me to head off to bed... I had the ginger tea, and it was nice ;) Hopefully I am not in too much pain tomorrow morning as I'm going for a ride again! I also hope I'm not so tired tomorrow afternoon, as I have a ton of work that needs to get done!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Day 3

Well the third day is beginning, and for the most part so far so good. I had breakfast at 7.30, and am now in the process of planning my day (with the "help" of a kitten...). This is the first "jumpstart" day, so I'm going to try one of the cheat recipes. I also have another EPOC session today, in which I hope to see a bit of improvement since last time (my muscles feel a little more defined already). I don't plan to go for such a long walk today, because I do have a lot of stuff to do, and I really can't handle the exhaustion of yesterday again today. I still feel sort of tired and a little out of sorts, and I need to kick that!

I will, however, be doing quite a bit of housework, and plan to go for a shorter walk in the forest later (if weather permits...it's already quite warm, despite looking like a cool change was coming yesterday afternoon). There are apparently thunderstorms predicted, but at the moment it's looking quite fine outside. I need to finish cleaning/sorting the study and moving my work stuff in there, so I can get stuck into the work I need to finish. I also need to finish sorting out THIS room today, because I'm sick of general untidiness! My tiredness the last couple of days means I was rather lazy with putting away the washing etc.

Well...I did accomplish most of the study cleaning, and have almost finished setting up my frog enclosure, but I do feel my eating could have been better. This afternoon it poured with rain, so it looks like no walk is on the agenda, and I will have to do my EPOC later when the kids are in bed, because I spent most of the afternoon on the frogs. I did make one of the "cheat" snacks, but the issue here was that there were too many biscuits, and I feel I ate more than I should have! Well... it will boost today's calories, that's for sure!

Final update... Well overall this day did not go 100% to plan nutrition or exercise wise. I did accomplish SOME things I needed to do, but things to improve my health and wellbeing well... iffy at best! Anyway, that's the way it goes sometimes. Time to give myself a good kick in the behind and keep moving in the right direction!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Day 2

Not a bad start to the day... ate breakfast at 7.30ish, although only had a protein shake, which isn't ideal. Went for my walk at about 9.30 and was back by 10:40 when I had my "snack" which was more of a breakfast (omelette with tabouli). Hot and sweaty again but not as bad as yesterday as it was a bit cooler (being earlier) when I walked. It's still shaping up to be another hot day though! I'm also trying to count the glasses of water I drink, because otherwise I forget where I'm up to!

Overall, I'm feeling pretty good today, not as tired as I was yesterday after walking, but I still need a 15 minute lie down, just to cool off! I have a ton of work to do, so can't afford to have looong afternoon naps! I need to get my study sorted out (still isn't after I moved) so that I can work somewhere more effectively than at the kitchen table (which also helps when kids are home! It's very difficult to get challenging work done with the noise and interruptions of kids in the same room). I have 10,000 words of a book to finish this week, and a few articles to write, so I'll be busy busy busy with that as well!

Oooh and I just fixed the time on the blog cause it was 18 hours out!

Hmm well I am just TIRED... maybe I should be walking a shorter distance for a little while, at least until I'm fitter... and/or the weather is cooler!

Well final update...overall today I felt fairly crappy. Not only was I exceptionally tired from what was only a 70 min walk, but I later got a headache which wouldn't go away, even with strong painkillers. I now feel sort f better... but I still want an early night. I think tomorrow I'll restrict my walk, or go for a short ride to ensure my bike's okay for Thursday's ride. I just won't kill myself doing it!! I'm back on the EPOC exercises tomorrow, so need energy for that, and I'm still behind in work etc. due to my tiredness. Am hoping that after the third day I'll be in better shape physically and mentally (I've read of a few people who felt cranky, irritable and not so great for the first three days). I also need to do a bit of housework/sorting tomorrow and it's hard to do that when I'm feeling physically and mentally exhausted.

Not sure how I will fit in the last snack of today... Not sure it really matters if I'm not up long enough to have it??!! Well I could have something really small at say 10.00...just a mouthful of cottage cheese or something... I really need a few more easy snack ideas! I'll be shopping again before the end of the week at this rate!

Monday, February 8, 2010

Progress Day 1

The BIGGEST issue today was not eating breakfast until 9... I really need to have it at 7.30 or earlier, just to fit in with the 3 meals and 3 snacks at 3 hour intervals. As it was I went for my walk at 10.30 anticipating that I'd be back by 12 for a meal (I figured the first snack would be missed, and I'd have a proper lunch rather than waiting until 3). As it was, I was even later because I caught up with a friend on my walk and we chatted for awhile. It was actually quite a motivating meeting as I haven't seen her in a year (as I moved away last year and only came back a few weeks ago), and she's lost a lot of weight. I didn't recognise her on her bike at first, until she came over! We're going riding together on Thursday, so that will be some good extra exercise to get in!

My walk should have encompassed the 10,000 steps and more... the only problem was that due to the heat and hills etc. I was rather exhausted afterwards (dripping with sweat when I got home) that I lay down on the bed for a short rest, and fell asleep. Not so great considering I have a ton of work to do!

I do need to learn to structure my day better to get in my walk, my BS EPOC training, as well as my work. I like to get a lot of stuff done while the kids are in school, but I could always move the walk to later in the evening and take it WITH the kids (good for them too!). Also, that way I can be tired out for the evening, NOT for the afternoon when I need the peace and quiet to work.

Well, I'll do another update before bed, with overall daily progress.

Oooh... well a challenge will soon arise. My kids are on a bit of a cooking "kick" and my daughter has just made some biscuits. I WILL resist the temptation to taste!

Pleased to note that I DID resist. Go me! For tea had BodyTrim meal (Beef Bolognese), and I'm considering what to have for my snack. Overall am pretty happy with my progress today! One thing I have noticed is that I'm not at all hungry. I know it seems stupid, but it always seems to me that unless I'm a little hungry when attempting to lose weight, that I just won't lose any. Of course, on an ideal diet or eating plan, one wouldn't feel hungry ever! I think there's just this psychological effect that hunger has which says to you "I'm losing weight!" And yet, ironically, if you're hungry too often you can't stick to the diet and thus fall off the wagon! So, here's hoping that I can lose this weight without feeling hungry AND without falling off the wagon! I may need to work a little more on portion sizes, but I'll gauge that next week when I weigh in. If the weight really hasn't started coming off I'll consider how much I'm actually eating.

Well had my final snack, which only brings today to 5 meals/snacks not 6, but better than I usually do! I mixed some cottage cheese with parsley, and it wasn't too bad!

Weight Loss Tracker

I've created a weight loss tracker, I just have to figure out how to put it somewhere here on the Blog!




Okay, I've figured it out and put it at the bottom of the blog. Now... to watch that little bunny rabbit hop through the grass and to the other side!

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Tomorrow Is Start Day

Well, I've started this blog as a way of motivating myself and keeping track of my goals for the BodySculpt 2010 Challenge. As usual, I was due to start a week ago, but several things got in the way and messed me up (entirely my fault... I shouldn't have let them happen, but I did!). So, I'm going to start AGAIN, better prepared this time! (Ideally I prefer to start on the 1st of the month, but it's not necessary for the challenge...). While the winner gets $5000 (a tidy sum indeed), I'm not really in it for the money!

Over the last year I gained 10kg GAK! This isn't great considering I was already overweight... but now I've really pushed over the line into OBESE, which I loathe! I'm at the point where I don't like going out in public cause I don't want people to see me. I especially dread seeing people I know who haven't seen me in some time, because I just KNOW they're going to think: "Gee she's put on so much weight!" I'd rather see people I haven't seen in ages and have them thinking the opposite ;) To add to my motivation, my 20 year high school reunion is on the 1st of May, and I've already told a good friend from high school I'll be going. Of course, there's no way I'd go in my current condition... I just couldn't bring myself to do it! So, even if I can't lose all my excess weight by the 1st of May, I will aim to at least be in the healthy weight range by then!

I'll weigh myself tomorrow morning, and take some measurements (if I can find a tape measure) and then it's all systems go! I'll do an update, a weight loss tracker etc. etc. once I've sorted all this out. I'll also try to keep track of the amount of activity I get done (to be fully compliant means 10,000 steps a day and a bodysculpt workout), as well as the food I eat. The goal is to be fully compliant with all food, snacks and activity!